I spent a happy two hours with Desmama and Nemesis tonight at Desmama's lovely home. We spoke about pending weddings, mortgages, husbands, sex, kids, new babies and families. We ate a delicious key lime pie that Desmama got from Suburban Hippie's blog. (I did not say we ate a piece of key lime pie. We literally ate the pie. Desdad did help.) We talked until well past sunset on Desmama's back porch looking out over the fabulous pastoral scene the Desfam picked for their house-anyone-would-love-to-grow-old in. I can see them doing just that.
As we spoke about such life-changing events as weddings, babies and moves, I realized that as stressful and difficult as certain things are, there is also a lot of joy along with those things. As much as I would love to have a year of my adult life that does not involve at least one MAJOR life decision, I also realize that I would not change hardly anything even if I had the ability to. Our experiences form who we are, and for all the trials and difficult decisions pending, I really do like myself exactly the way I am.
And though the next year will undoubtedly bring more difficult choices: two days ago I slalomed skiied for the first time in three years and it was as though I'd never been away; tonight I sat face to face with two women I absolutely adore; Plantboy and I are still crazy-in-love after nine years; I spent the afternoon conversing with my mother; my kids were both adorable and adoring today; the stars shone so brightly over Bear Lake that ideas for stories are eating at the corners of my brain again.
I think today I was able to live in the joy of the moment.